I want to drink my lunch

What a morning. Working everyday with kids who do not want to work is the most frustrating thing I've ever done. Mornings I deal with Middle School age kids who have been kicked out of school. Some days they work, some days they sleep, some days they want to talk sports and some days I am convinced their sole purpose is to drive me insane. Today was the day of insanity. The heat was on 85 degrees, I had a splitting headache with no aspirin. No one wanted to work or sit. When told to do their work or sit I was told I'm mean. Has anyone ever disciplined these kids?
The dean of students came down with a policeman to do a random search and talk to them about their behavior. One boy got in a screaming match with him and it devolved into a situation that I find hard to find words for. A grown man pretty much coming down to the level of a child and you could see the hate they both had.
Yesterday morning we were watching the preparations for the inauguration. I thought it would make an impact. They hardly cared. They talked the whole time and kept complaining they were bored. BORED!!!!! I can't wrap my head around that. Inside I wanted to smack them across the head and shout:
"You little shits don't you realize you don't need to be entertained 24/7! Don't you realize you are in this room because you make bad choices and your one step away from being kicked out of school altogether at the age of 14!!!! Don't you realize what you are watching is history in the making and you should feel proud and appreciative to be a part of it!!!

I want to be able to think I can help, to make some kind of difference, to be the calm they need in their life. The problem seems way bigger than me. I got in my van to go home for lunch and just cried. I am back at work with the High School kids and I could just hug them. They are quiet, do there work and are respectful. Why is that so hard for some. It's the question of the day.

Baby it's cold outside

This pretty much sums up how it is around here.

FREEZING!

If you can't tell that's me.

I'm telling you it's cold!

Christmas house part 2

I thought I would start a house using fabric like I use for the garland and ornaments. I really like the look but it is a bit more time consuming. I can't wait to get the mica glitter to finish them off.

Christmas isn't over here

I know Christmas is over but it doesn't mean I have to stop making decorations. I have been obsessed with vintage paper Christmas houses. I would buy them but they are either too expensive or I don't have the patience to try to find fabulous vintage ones or I am not a good enough shopper to find a great knockoffs somewhere. So I am going to make them myself. I have big plans in my head that I will make a whole village. Here is the first try. It is not quite finished. I still need to put the paper in the windows and sprinkle on that fabulous mica glitter. I ordered some today but I won't have it for a week or so. I had to take a picture though because I am very happy with it so far. Now I just have to be on the lookout for fun little things I can embellish them with. I found a website today that has some beautiful handmade houses.

I think this new day job I have (see below) has renewed my interest in making pretty things. After being around kids who's whole life revolves around x-box and rap stars, I can't wait to be around all things pretty and glittery.

Working for peanuts

I started working part time for our school district before the holidays. When break was over I did not think I would get called much and was a bit happy about it. The night before the kid's went back I got a call that they needed an aid for where the Kid's who get in trouble go. This was not just a sub position, this would be every day. I said I would try it out. Well it has been one interesting week. I deal with middle schoolers in the morning and high schoolers in the afternoon. At first I thought this may be very rewarding helping these kids get back on track and back to regular school. This pretty much went out the window after the first day. Two of the kid's slept the entire morning. The Principle has said to just let them sleep so they are not disruptive. There are sexual assault charges pending, battery against a teacher, firearms violations, GPS ankle bracelets, parole officers and many other interesting topics of conversation happening. I am not sure if this is something I can do for the long haul but I am getting wierdly used to it and if I didn't know what these kid's have done I would have never guessed it.

If I start posting video of some new rap star or  sprinkling my writing with "Yo Cuz" please let me know I will quit immediately.

Believe

While putting presents under the tree last night,

I found a folded up note. On the front it said 'To Santa'.

It had enough tape on it to wrap three presents.

When I opened it I found this.

Well Ella got that American Girl doll and

Aaron wasn't trying to discount Santa today.

I wish I could just stop the clock.

Merry Christmas

I have not blogged in ages. I have proof that I have been busy. But hasn't everyone been busy and they have time to blog, well I can only multi task so much and blogging went by the wayside. I have been decorating...

and decorating...

and being a bit crafty...

and baking, baking, baking (that could be written many more times)...

and trying to get good Christmas card shots.

Here is the winner even though Ella hates it this is it.

There was a Christmas party thrown in there held by yours truly.

So I think I have enjoyed this holiday so far now that I see it in pictures.

I remember it vaguely.

I must go, there is pulled pork to be taken out of the oven and a few more cookies to bake and alot of leftover wine from the party to drink.

I wish you all the merriest of Christmas's.

I hope you are blessed beyond your wildest dreams.